5/11/2012

it’s hard to remain grateful for all that i have been graced with, especially during tumultuous times. but i think that since i recognize this notion, i am always aware of my gratitude or lack of, which in turn helps bring back the grace.

sometimes though, i want to slap my inner self.

may and december are always hard. school is ending and attached to that is the fear that accompanies passing time. this semester my personal life took precedence over school, but i was 100% okay with that. i can’t say that i don’t wish i had made better grades, but i can now recognize that life isn’t about grades or getting a job. it is about making memories that you can share with the world. tom petty pretty much sums it up,

“You have four years to be irresponsible here. Relax. Work is for people with jobs. You’ll never remember class time, but you’ll remember time you wasted hanging out with your friends. So, stay out late. Go out on a Tuesday with your friends when you have a paper due Wednesday. Spend money you don’t have. Drink ‘til sunrise. The work never ends, but college does…”

i only have 3 more semesters before this huge part of my life will be completed. 3 is not an intimidating number in this case, but the choices that must be made during that time are. i’m excited to go forward and experience whatever happens because i know that life is about living and that with living comes anxiety, joy, glory, failure and every thing in between.

i just hope that for me, my one goal is to make it through the rest of my life being a good and genuine person.

and i am the only one who can say if i meet those standards.